:D

2007-10-19T17:25:00.000+08:00

you've won.
i've lost.

fuck this blog.
i dont wanna post le.
bye.

2007-10-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

haiz.
why do so many quotes and phrases come to my mind when im emo.

i wanted to post everyth out. everyth i felt, and stuff.
to be honest i thought it was stupid, since nobody cared anyway.

i still wanted to, but now i just dont wanna. i just, dont feel like telling anybody how i feel, when i can just live anti-socially.
i really duno wad's going on in my life..
everyth seems so artificial.
and so easily broken and destroyed.
maybe because it wasn't there in the first place..

i have so many things to say. but i dun wanna say it anymore. i now know why i dont wanna blog.
seriously,
i seriously dont want to blog.

i just wanna live by myself. i find joy in doing things away from everyone else.
i dont want to tell my troubles to people,
i dont want to share my joys with people,
i dont want to live with people.
because people are all the same.
and.
i dont think i wanna continue anymore.

everytime i think of all the things running through my head,
and i think of a place to let it all out,
and then i get put off when i blog.
simply because.
my life has seriously been ruined.
and spoiled,
by the world.

i am going to go off now,
and i know this post hardly means anything,
and i've probably wasted another few minutes of my life.
but i dont care if i waste these few minutes,
because i have nothing to live for anyway.

if you want to ask me now.
i can tell you.
this phrase is really common,
and many people just say it for the sake of self-pity,
but dont take a look around to see the good things in life.
do you know why i KNOW im not one of them?
ill just give you one reason, out of the many. which is enough.
those people out there,
i know that they think that way.
but as for me?
nobody cares about how i feel now.

im trying to look on the bright side here.
so let me end with this.

if i were to die now,
i'd have no regrets.

2007-09-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

o.o you guys must be so shocked why i post 2 days in a row. lala. or maybe you all dun even read-.- but anyway, i didn't blog cos i wanted to? my sunday's still damn freaking busy-.- haiz.. oh well. still gonna blog anyway.

just finished half of the maths paper? the other half i duno =/ and i counted my marks and for EOY ill get around 47 marks? wow. zzz.
and im still left with loads of revision for chinese and science tests next week o.o hmm guess ill only do one of them today..

so now's my break for an hour. lol. yeah guess ill just slack away, like wad i always do during 2day holidays..
oh i've got quizzes! lots and lots-.- but ill do just 2?
*haha see i did 1 more than i promised(x
dont really think this one would be lame as ytd's.. hmm.

1.Honestly what color is your shirt?
blue. wow heng never ask underwear =X haha.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
her.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
answering a question.
4. Honestly, have you ever been in love ?
yeah.
5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
is eating bad. i did alot of that..
6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
yeah. its cool wad xD
7.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
shipei?
8.Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
now, not really ba.
9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
stuff that aren't happy lor.
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
nope.
11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
nah.. ... ... =/
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
yep..
13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?
lol yes.
14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
of course(:
15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
how i know..

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
1. What do you do when you're mad?
vulgarities?
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
duno sia.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
guess so..
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
who doesn't.
5. When was the last time you really cried?
haha dun wan say :D
6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
nah, i dont sleep at all.
7. What usually makes you cry?
sad stuff. lol.
8. Are you normally a happy person?
dun tink so, but im really happy when i am(:
9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
guess so, but not really too.
10. When people say they think you are handsome/pretty, do you get happy?
haha jason said i was uglier than him before :D cute guy.

ok that's all. hmm yeah bye everyone!(:

2007-09-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

o.o err hello people?
hmm, i havent been blogging, and i guess im blogging now?
a dead blog still can get updated cant it.

oh guess wad? its my 350th post! lala :D lols.
yeah and i guess. life so far ain't that bad..
with weird stuff, but yeah its fine?

i've got an announcement to make : im learning drums no more): zz. and so much for guitar too since my parents are such childish bitches. so all i have now is piano that i have already half forgotten =/ sad, but i guess there's nth i can do about it now, so NEXT PARAGRAPH! O.O

ok. this weekend got quite alot of homework.. luckily i dont need to go for family gathering liao. heh. but ill be home with my parents. which is like super sian): oh well, guess ill be studying or watching tv..

so i guess i'd better get to important stuff and finish it so i can study! lala. which is, my first quiz for a very very long time! lala. hmm tagged by shipei de?:D in case you all forgot, i do quiz always damn lame 1-.-

1. In two words, explain yesterday:
before today o.o
2. Who made u smile today?
her.
3. What were u doing this morning at 8?
sleeping.
4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago?
blogging o.o
5. Something that happened to u in 1985?
i decided to hibernate until 2007-.-
6. Last thing someone else said to you?
byebye!
7. What was ur answer?
byebye! lol.
8. Worst thing on television:
news =X
9. What was in your e mail today?
i havent went in since i hibernated in 1985-.-
10.How many different beverages have you drank today?
one? mango juice.
11. What is ur favorite part of the day?
the part that doesn't suck.
12. Your current To-do list?
blog, study, slack, sleep.
13. Where is ur best friend right now?
i dont have a best friend): ain't that sad. lol.
14. What color is ur toothbrush?
blue?
15. What are u wearing right now?
haha can i answer this after i get dressed.
16. Any plans for Friday night?
sai la got that mooncake festival thing in sch-.-
17. Least favorite place to shop?
perfume department? o.o
18. Things u bought today?
nth.
19. Last gift you received?
duno sia o.o think eugene loh gave me his gutter but i rejected it =/
20. Who gave you that?
eugene loh lah.. zz quizzes are so stupid.
21. What made you sad today?
my parents stayin at home):
22. What can make you happy?
her? and only her.
23. Beauty is:
what you see when you're in love.
24. Describe your key chain:
the mickey mouse came out =X
25. Where do u keep ur change?
wallet?
26.Are u happy with ur life?
well, guess so?(:
27. What are u thinking now for someone you love?
i miss you? lala.
28. If someone you love forgets you and think your're disturbing to him/her then how would you feel?
why this question so long ah. lol of cos SAD la..
29. Person u trust the most?
her.
30. what day is it today?
saturday.
31. what are you going to do after this?
click 'PUBLISH'.

there it is. hmm dun tink alot of ppl will read hor): but nvm yeah. so yep, cya guys! happy holidays:D

day and night, all about you.

2007-09-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

o.o i havent blogged in a long time, as usual. and my blog's still dead):

haiz and the hols are over soon.

i guess im supposed to be happy now, yeah i guess, im happy..

ok today my post will just be pics and captions? cos they are impt and i have no time to blog-.- yeah but i guess ill finish 5 quizzes in the next week? possibly 2 weeks too =X

lala. ok first i shall post the ones that i didn't intend to post?? o.o but as you can see, cornelius has been asking me for a week liao. so yeah SORRY blackdude.

O.o apparently he like's being stupid.

yirong's the one with the lame shirt anyway(:

alright dont have much time, but ill post some pics. haha guess who i took them with =X

DONUT factory o.o

and then after lots of eating (and dripping o.o) we got this. lala.
alright i completed this! haha in 350secs(: you know what i did it for?

ok i think that's all i gonna post. there's more, and they're really spastic. but i still think they're nice(: lala. wanna post also no time liao, so bye guys! happy hols?

i guess im supposed to be happy now, yeah i guess, im happy..

or maybe i just dont want things to get bad.

maybe i should just keep quiet? and smile because you're happy(:

2007-09-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

i dont know why..
i've tried my best.

i always try my best. for everyone to be happy.
with whatever i try for.
when things are right, im always at the side of everything.
and when things go wrong, it all falls on me.

i really dont understand. and i guess.
all i wanted to know was that.
someone could actually be touched by how hard i tried.

i hope my trying paid off, anyway.
i wont give up.

2007-09-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

ok. sch hols have started.. and i guess my slacking level has just rosed all the way up..

im just here to post a short post, because i dont have much time left to waste my life on =/ cornelius wanted me to post some pictures, zzz but im not really free now. just felt like posting this short post, for my psch friends whom i didn't get to see ytd?

yeah i guess. sec sch's really diff from psch, and duh everyone knows that. and i guess though all of us have went our seperate ways into each of our sec schs, we're still e same ppl once we're together. when we relive all those days where we were all tgt, with nth but childish minds just wanting to be happy.
damn i miss them. and damn i hate sec sch..

so i missed the opportunity to see them again-.- and i guess i hope i can see them really soon.. but come to think of it, hardly of them ever tag again. and i guess they wont be able to read this.. kinda sad huh..
but im really thankful, to all of you guys.
you guys make secondary school seem so dammit fucking shitty(:

then i think again. and i guess i have sth just as good, if not better, to be my everything.
girl i love you. and you mean the world to me.
im more than glad that we're together,
im thankful that we're together. forever.

would you please make me feel special?

2007-08-28T16:27:00.000+08:00

o.o ok firstly, i know i was supposed to blog on monday. lol but 2 times in 4 days also not bad ma(x

o.o right so i have a few min more to blog. actually just came online to go acp for science notes. im studying hard.. yeah then did a lil blogsurfing lor. after a very very long time. lol. but it seems like nobody misses me on their blogs): wth luh i say hear also nobody will read or care =/ zz. k wadever..

yeah ill go slp ltr i guess. or maybe ill study or sth. still need to print the science notes.. and i have quizzes and need to update my ipod. wth im seriously damn busy.. haiz why am i even saying all this.

ok i think im getting really stressed liao. so im just not gonna care about anything else.
and if you guys wanna know sth, my day freaking sucked today-.-
and nobody was there.
nobody is here.
maybe that's why im so damn stressed.

dammit. i duno wad to do now.
bye.

2007-08-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok im posting for you.
yes, the lucky reader now(: lala.

wow its been another 6 days? zzz sorry. to ppl who are reading my blog = me talking to myself-.- sibei sian la blog to a wall, haiz but since my blog still exists ill still blog for the sake of some ppl lor. hmm..

ok. here's your chance to experience a rare lifetime opportunity of me POSTING TWICE in 3 days [including tdy] wow. lala. ++ ill be doing a quiz!! haha. im lame-.-

yeah wadever luh. so i guess ill be posting on monday..
and yeah. just for memories' sake, i guess my life's doing fine.
im not really expecting much. just simple, simple stuff.
and all i have is my music and you to go through day by day.
lala i've been using limewire excessively :D

dear reader, please tag?
i may not be rich,
i may not be popular,
i may not be smart,
so i may not be able to do anything for you in return..
but always remember..
i have something you dont.
a dead tagboard-.-

that's a lame quote. lol im slpy. cya everyone!

we have forever. but dont wait til then.
because i've been waiting.
for the rain?(:

2007-08-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

hmm. im blogging again? lala cos i promised again.
but then, my blog's still dead. no matter how interesting my posts are..
haha who am i kidding. my posts are damn sian..

but last time damn nice de lor. who ask you all no tag =/ lala.

i think im doing fine ba. heh this week i didn't study at all.. i hope next week will be ok? im gonna spend more time on studies, haha ever since i realised i can do well if i work hard =X which is, really freaky. but true xD
thanks for the encouragement? lol.

hmm. this weekend was alright i guess..? oral. zzz. i studied damn hard la.. end up was smoking-.- and chenzehou was talking so loudly i knew the topic while i was waiting at the chair before the examiner. haha. but i still screwed up =/

after that i went out? to bishan. wow really far. lols actually nvr do much la, but it was fun? got change of scenery ma. lols..
then i went to shipei's house for awhile. we cooked? lala. actually other than that we studied then no more liao :D which was fun. heh. thanks(((:

ok today. i ponned church. again.. haha i think im addicted o.o but guess wad. my mum caught me this time-.- my CGL pao toe, so i got screwed. zzz. oh well.. then the rest of sunday was just slacking all the way.. wow.
now its night time le, zzz. guess ill just finish off the day. mancity 1 - 0 manu now, haha. manu sucks this season =X and ltr there's liverpool vs chelsea. wow late night today..

but i guess. this week i was doing sth through everything i did(: thinking of you.
ok bye ppl!

and i'd say things to touch your heart forever.
but you'd have to be here to hear them.
will you?

2007-08-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

kaoz. sibeh sian-.-

my life is damn boring. and i've never came online for like. more than 2 wks-.- wtf..
wadever la. nobody reads this anyway. dont even know why im posting.. haiz but i promised someone i guess? by wednesday?(:

zzz. really really fucking boring now. and i just finished my history so i guess ill go study for maths.. im bored.

wtf la really got nth to say liao.
and i am definately not interested in going back to blogging.
cos it sucks.
amen.

wait. last quote. for like, the next few weeks-.-
duno if this'll make a difference to you, but wadever.
i'd walk a hundred miles if i knew you were at the other side,
i'd walk a thousand miles if i knew you needed me there.
i'd walk a million miles if i knew i could spend the rest of my life with you,
but i'd walk forever if you were walking right beside me.

oh yeah. this is 100% original? and copyrighted. this is to all the ppl that steal quotes from my blog o.o lol.

2007-08-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

o.o okok. lemme tell you the looong story.

today i brought my phone charger to sch, cos my phone batt was getting low, and i wanted to play pokemon in class o.o

lol so after NDP rehearsal i chionged for drums, and forgot my charger-.- and then my batt was freaking low and definately not enough for the week?
so i decided to come to the comp to charge, which led me to blogsurf.
then, i realised the adaptor through the comp SUCKS, so i didn't charge my phone anw-.-
then i chatted and blogsurfed, until now its super late and i wanna slp cos tmr's a long day but i duno why im still blogging-.-

wth am i blogging about sia..
hmm wadever yep.

so, standard phrase.
i havent been blogging for such a long time! lol. and my blog's still dead-.-
wth luh. really nobody tag liao. and even i myself have almost abandoned this blog..

does any1 know what tmr is??
other than 2.4??
see nobody cares): lols. guess ill just hope tmr will be ok..

yeah these few days, were kinda rough. and tmr's the day alr. it doesn't feel the same though, feels like everyth's so.. not-special. first time in my life, but wadever. by the time you guys see this the day would be long gone-.-

so, i just wonder who cares. haiz.. but now. who cares bout my life anymore o.o
zz. how many presents will i get =X
wadever lah. gd luck for 2.4 tmr ppl! yeah and, i just hope everything goes smoothly.

do you know what would make me so happy?

2007-07-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

wow i havent been blogging for duno duno hw many days-.- duno why lah. just suddenly havent been coming online the past few days. maybe i've lost e interest? yeah and as a result my blog is super dead )x so sad right. everybody doesn't care bout my life =/

lala.

next week's very busy o.o tmr need to go to yirong's house to watch pokemon! and of cos, do elit :D zz. then i havent even started on my hw.. haiz hope ill still be able to slack more during this 2-day sch hol.. always so fast pass de lor..

hmm but today i guess i didn't waste any time(: yeah. i studied a lot!! yea man.. heh. but im still at shipei's house now =X lala wadever. hmm i tried out a new dish today xD i still think its nice heh..
hmm think i should go home soon. im feeling very tired. and so is she! :D
oh and shipei is damn dumb. she passed a dumb quiz with flying colours (x i passed too! just not as bad(:

ok so. hope i've studied enough today.. hmm and hope next week will be better?
i still dont think im gonna update much the next few days=/ and guess my blog will be damn dead-.- but wadever. at least i updated today?
lala. cya everyone!(:

lala white words. lol.
let me spend every day left in my life with you.

2007-07-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

ok ppl, need to chiong this post because somebody asked me to post and another somebody is screaming the hell outta me.

zz. havent seen my tagboard for 4days. wonder who's still in my life huh =/ yeah i know its really dead, and so is my blog. maybe i just lost the inspiration to come online? stuck on the phone ba.. lala. unless maybe i need to print stuff? xD

hmm yeah, and tmr there's sports enrichment. wow this week i completed my work!! lala cos there wasn't really any-.- anywaym hope next weeks gonna be better.. ? and i hope the ppl there for me will be more than the ppl that tag on my blog -.-

oh, and yesterday i went to yirong's hse, and shipei's. and came back super late. zzz and im soo tired now o.o
but i had fun :D
oh shit hope i wasn't rude =/ lala.
will you cherish every single second we spend tgt,
and make more as we go?

2007-07-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

haiz i duno why im updating..
im feeling so empty. like my life's so short of everything..
damn-.-
guess i should just go now. zz.

my blog's really dead le. like average of 1 tag per day? and i hardly update or blogsurf now le.. haiz guess im just really tired. think ill sleep really early tnite.

wad's wrong with me now.
is this all just the result of missing you?

2007-07-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

wow i havent blogged in a long time. lala.

im here to blog about my day. and do a quiz? lala.

ok i forgot how to blog le-.- lala.

ok anyway, today i went to shipei's house to study. again =X actually i was supposed to go claim my donut, but we ended up studying :D my oral sucks =/ sorry): but thanks anyway xD oh and her mum's cooking is damn nice o.o and then we decided to blog, so here i am-.- and i think i gotta go home soon, so yep. peachmilktea <33

oh shit. i gotta go now. so i think ill do the quiz tmr? sorry ada =/
so bye every1!
the perfect person to spend the perfect day with(:
thanks.

2007-07-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

wads happening man.
wads happening to me..
im falling so sick.
and the world feels so dark.
where is my light.
where is my one and only.

i really duno what im online for.
or why im blogging.
i just feel like typing it all out here.
im feeling everything but happy.
this sucks, so much..
its painful. and i cant get it off my mind.

if you missed me like i do now.
why aren't you doing anything.
dont you need me.
after all that i tried?
or are you just an illusion now.
is all of this worth it for me..
or has everyone i've been defending against for you been right all along..

if you needed me like i do now.
you would be breaking down,
not because im not there for you.
but because im not there with you.
do you know?
if you dont say anything. does it mean you dont feel both at all?

if you're still smiling without me.
when im waiting in agony and silence,
day by day telling myself how much i love you because you cant hear it.
what does it mean.
i dont even know if you care.
because in your eyes i still aint everything at all.
what am i doing..
what did i do wrong..

baby set me free, from this misery.
i cant take it no more.
since you were away, nth's been the same.
i don't know what im living for.

here i am, so alone.
and there's nth in this world i can do..
until you're back here, baby.
wish you, want you, need you so.

there's a feeling inside i want you to know.
you are the one that i cant let go.

and i wonder..
are you thinking of me, cos im thinking of you.
and i wonder..
are you ever coming back here.

i guess. the saddest thing of all.
is that after all i tried.
you have nth to say at all.

2007-07-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

2007-07-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

haiz. i duno im online now. and why im blogging.. suddenly being online seems so boring. and like thr's nth to do.. and i have no mood to do anything at all. all im doing is switching between 2 blogs, and wishing something would happen.

haiz maybe ill go off after this post, since nth changed anyway.. haiz maybe ill go do work or sth. got tuition tmr, so yeah-.-
and up til now, im still waiting for your reply.

i kinda quarrelled with my parents just now. or rather they were scolding and i just sat there and rot. my dad was screaming like some unreasonable freaking gay, and my mum was behind nagging, adding little unneccessary bitchy comments to make my dad scream more, and also to remind him of the past so they can bring it up and screw my fucking life.
and is anyone here? fuck no.

oh well. that's life. cya then ppl.. happy tuesday.
they're all just small matters. small, small matters.
im not upset, im not upset and im definetly not upset.
i dont care, cos they're just small matters.
and i am happy.
ill just wait, continue waiting,
and dammit wait.

2007-07-08T20:51:00.001+08:00

wow. i havent came online in a long time. same for blogging? and same to the tags too-.- why suddenly so dead sia.. ok wadever. i shall blog.

this weekend passed really quickly. and in a few hours im going to sch again-.- damn boring sia.. and i dun recall myself slacking alot? or working alot too? guess time just flies. so much for my 2-day school holiday):
hmm. ask me if im happy?
...
i really dont know what this feeling is..

right. i just cut my hair =/ duno if its ok, but the tail is still like freaking long. so i think ill need to cut again next week, if not it'll grow to my knees-.-
ok its getting late. and i feel like slacking a lil more then going to bed early today.. guess ill just see how tmr goes. so, bye then every1! tag pls?

maybe ill just extend it a lil?

i will just simply wait for you to stop turning back.
until you let me be the reason you're looking forward.
even if i may be upset of anything you do.
ill still be happy cos of you.
ask me if im happy again? i am.

there are no such things as bad days. they just aren't as good as the perfect ones(:
will you be there to give them to me?
cos i will.

2007-07-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

hey guys. my blog's freaking dead-.- duno why the tags suddenly drop, but wtf do i care for. haiz.. everyone who promised to tag didn't. k wadever.

today wasn't happy. and i dun think its ok.. zz. maybe its just school ba.. yeah wadever it is, it aint good.
stayed back after sch til almost 5 cos of chinese remedial-.- with the remedial gang o.o lol.

hmm i duno wad else to post le lah.. haiz. still got work to do, so i shall try to do and then slack for the night. bye guys!
when times like these come by, all i have to do is wait for you to save me.
for you to be together with me, i will wait.
wait, and wait and wait.
and wait..

2007-07-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

hey guys, havent been updating in quite awhile.
but you all also nvr tag-.- dun even know who's reading this..

today wasn't really good. zzz. 2E's male population has officially become pokemon addicts-.-

there's chinese test tmr. and i've studied a lil.. haiz. i need help with my chinese.. zz. but nobody's here-.- im trying to remember every lil thing i rmb bout chengnanjiushi.. and squeeze the yanyu in the remaining space. kaoz freaking hard luh.. guess ill just flunk again.

wadever it is, ill either be slacking or studying. not blogging. cya ppl!
once again, i miss you so much.
once again, you weren't there as i needed you to.
once again, i wasn't the one who made you happy.
once again, i missed out on a chance to touch your heart.
once again, i should stop thinking bout myself.
and my happiness.

2007-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

ok. im supposed to be doing work, and came online like an hour ago, but havent started-.-
well i decided to blog for certain reasons?(:

am i happy? zzz. guess now's not the time to answer that qn.
unless it were from you.
so, i've made a list of Homework I Owe My Dear Teachers This Semester, and after the first week i have about 12 items-.- damn sian la. and when im lazy to stretch my hand to reach for the list next to me so i can blog about it, how can i ever start on my work-.- lol. oh well, at least tmr i have the whole day!
lala.

hmm thanks for tagging ppl. though i still cannot reply =/ ill reply at your blogs! :D
oh but i have this old one.
-SHIPEI-: hey thr:D u love renaissance aye! (: and nerds rock.i tink xD
- haha yeah renaissance<333333333>

lol. ok guess tmr i wont be blogging le, so yeah. heh i've decided to stop working, so its slack for the rest of the night xD
`just leave everything behind.
and look forward with me.
never forget how you make me this happy, cos every once in a while i may need you to do it again.

2007-06-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

hey guys. zz.
havent been updating the past few days.. have been really busy luh. and now that i've come to update, im feeling screwed again. its always like that. when i feel like shit, i have all the time in the world-.-

ok wadever. will just blog anyway.. haiz. going for my relative's wedding ltr. i hate my family, but nt my cousins? yeah. they're all just bitches, sluts and backstabbers. so i guess ill hate it later.. today's the worst day of the week. for many many reasons. the pass few days were much better. haiz screw all of this..
and the number of tags have gone down damn lot-.- ok wadever.. haiz like you ppl care o.o

i am unwanted by every single one. and every individual mind of its own does not put me first in any way. i am nothing to all, everything to none.
guess im alone in this world.
and you, you've got me loving you so much. yet so confused.
you havent answered my qn.
will you answer it and make me feel like i have everything?
or will the truth hurt. am i just another guy?
just be here for me man-

2007-06-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

i was this close man.
this freaking close to posting a happy post.
guess ppl just love ruining my life..
screw this blog.
hardly any happy posts at all..

were you there for me?
i wish you missed me like you miss them so much..
wish you freaking missed me..

2007-06-25T15:19:00.000+08:00

sorry for that post ytd. ill delete it later.
im posting here because i would like to blog about my life.
first day of sch was wad i predicted it to be.
it was not fun.
and i come home and slack.
everything feels really dark now.
and im scared.
and sleepy.
and angry.
and mostly.
sad.
and i dont know how else to say it, but blog.
even my blogging doesn't make sense.
well guess it may not be for anyone to understand.
thanks for everything ppl.
it means nth to me.
yet its everything and all that i have.
you wanna know something?
im still waiting for your call.
you wanna know something else?
i dont know what's going on in your life, and why you're not calling.
you wanna know the most important thing?
i cant do without you.
that's the only thing i know too.

2007-06-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

zz. sorry for nt updating ppl. havent been using the comp lately cos i fell sick-.- guess the number of tags have dropped too? haiz sry ppl. still dun wanna reply =X

this is the last week le. and im left with tons of hw for the rest of the days. zzz. so sian la. pokemon also play finish le. but still duno how to catch mewtwo-.- my gameboy screwed de lor o.o

today i went to shipei's hse to study. lol. we studied alot. read alot too(: lol. actually im still here-.- but wadever. oh im gonna be late again! :D
i love o2jam!! <33333333333

ok. that's bout it. i dun wanna go back to sch.. zzz. bye ppl! i love you(:

2007-06-14T23:20:00.001+08:00

guess ill never be put before them..

2007-06-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

zzz. i dont wanna reply tags =/ haiz i duno if i should continue replying tags. its like, i reply one whole chunk also duno if anyone reads o.o lols.. hmm maybe after my bday or sth (x oh but there are some tags like dis : -'xk : anw liverpool lost to ac milan hor ee kwee xDD'- which dammit have to be replied.
[xk] liverpool should have won lor. AC tyco onli-.- lol eekwee is cool xD

k wadever.. lol. anyway, think im feeling ok(: lols. though i havent started on hw yet, and i duno how to catch mewtwo!! zzz. lols =X home's quite boring and ridiculous cos of the column of punishments my shit ass parents created a few days ago-.- yeah but ill be spending the next few days out, so i dont give much of a damn..

today was alright. heh. went back to sch for some lame shit CJJ asked us to do. was with eugene and yirong the whole time. hmm it was ok i guess.. but i got kp-ed cos i had to pangseh them and go to chowy's house o.O lol. then i made friends with her bro, and blah blah =/ it was kinda memorable. lol.

after that i went to tm. and i guess everything was worth the wait? =D =X lol. walked a few rounds, but it was fun, to me =/ then i saw gordon, and he didn't realise i was thr until he walked pass me-.- lols.

on the way home i met honghwee on the MRT. and we were like on the same carriage o.o lols damn qiao. so we talked bout stuff. its been 6 months since i last seen him.. hmm. wonder what happened huh..

ok now i just feel like playing o2jam. damn long never play sia.. and it seems so fun (x hmm but ill have to slp early tonight, busy day tmr. so cya every1 then!! man, i havent talked bout my day in a looooong time.
the whole day i was wishing you'd put me before anything else. but you didn't.
and though you keep doing it, you somehow manage to mend my heart back.
with a simple smile.
everytime you leave, my world suddenly feels so dim. and then ill know how much i miss you.

2007-06-12T19:22:00.000+08:00

hello ppl! im eating and slping again! 10 meals and 10 hours a day =X k wadever. lols. maybe you might think sth's wrong with me. cos im not emo anymore :D lala. nvm i shall just post normally =/ heh.
oh and thanks for all the tags ppl! will reply asap! hopefully tmr?

tmr there's choir. lols. and i havent even started on my hw-.- and hols are ending in less than 2 weeks!! kaoz. hw? comp? GAMEBOY? sleep? i duno how to spend my hols. lol.
you?

yeah i have nth much to say. i kinda like hols. i prefer them to sch.. but damn there's hw. and my parents have gone freaking crazy, irritating and death-deserving these few days. in the past 12 hours, i have lost $30 and my right to use comp for the whole week. and it all started cos i came back late twice in this june hols? freaking unreasonable luh, and it'll just continue like this.. every 12 hours..
yeah they made some punishment system. fuck this house.. i wanna run away.

that's bout it.. cya ppl! happy hols (:

you've got me dreaming again.
could everyday be exactly the same?
could you make my dreams come true every single day?
please dont break them again?

if this is all the time you can give me. and if this is all the love you can return.
please dont go.

2007-06-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

tags starting from today will be replied? sorry for all the unreplied ones.

im damn sick now. freaking headache and fever. and i have to go out for project tmr.. haiz i feel freaking weak. i dont know what's with me. why am i being like this.. i really dont know how to say it all out. i just feel so screwed. and lonely.

you never understand. everytime i try.
have you ever thought of how i'd feel when you do things.
have you ever thought of what i'd want,
and tried to make me happy?
or do you just enjoy life unaffected by me while im here fucking up my life.

please put me to sleep? i cant live like that..

2007-06-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

i havent replied tags. and i dont intend to. sorry ppl =/
not like anyone's tagging anyway-.- i dont even know if anyone's reading this.
this world is so screwed..
but anyway, thanks ppl.

i didn't sleep last night. and today i wont again.. i didn't eat much too. just a bowl of noodles tdy? the feelings coming back. and i really dont know if im just being stupid. life feels so meaningless. and im rotting away again.. i wish somebody came and gave me a reason to live.

my dream come true never came true. i was just dreaming..

i wish you would call. and tell me everything i wanna hear.
and promise that its true.
but knowing you, i guess you never do it for me.

2007-06-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

maybe you'll really never understand how i feel.
maybe you'll never stop breaking my heart,
but i know this love wont go to waste,
for days like these with you.

tell me im all that you need. please?
maybe one day, you will.

2007-06-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

wow i suddenly feel alright.
maybe even happy :D
k im retarded.

today i ate alot. slept alot. i finally got the mood back :D lol. and i've been playing the pokemon leafgreen i bought in beijing. kaoz.. lol im a childish addicted pokemaniac xD k wadever.

tmr got choir again. zzz sian.. oh well. more of slacking when i return home :D

i have lots of tags to reply. and i havent blogsurfed in weeks. lol alot of tags to return too. hmm ill do all this tmr ba. except relinking. i hate relinking =x lols.

gonna slp soon! wanna catch up on slp (x yeah. guess im happy like that.. when im not at school. its always like that..
can you change it, please?

disappear-

2007-06-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

i havent eaten since ytd and i havent slept for hours.
and im wide awake, waiting for time to pass.
i dont wanna go through this.. i dont wanna freaking live like that. i miss you..

this is what it means. when you lose everything..
i cant smile anymore.

2007-06-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

i havent been blogging for a long time.

i was in china.

i didn't take much photos.

im not blogging about it.

it was a waste of time.

i did not enjoy it.

happy june holidays. fuck care hw-.-
one day. with her. after so long..
after 9 days of thinking, planning and missing.
you had to take her away.
i really want to know where i am in your heart right now.
maybe im just lovesick.

2007-05-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

hey ppl(: long time since i last blogged o.O lol 4 days. anyway for more than half of my blogreaders will be reading this when they return to sunny singapore..

tdy im posting for a special reason(: lol. i guess i just. feel better? but i know china's gonna make it all worse.. oh well. ill just blog now. and hope it wont be that bad..

today time passed really fast o.O and i guess it was kinda fun, even the church part. though my life still sucks-.- lol ok im breaking my blogrule-.- lala. but i still think marina sq's better :D

ok. this may be my last post until 9 days later, and for ppl who are reading this and still duno im going to china to waste my life =/ yeah, so im gonna do everything all for the last time today, and treasure every single moment of it(: like you.

think i've packed most of everyth, but ill do the final packing later. sian luh why must 2E and 2D be the last batch-.- so tmr morning, the whole of sec2 will be in china when 2D and 2E are still in singapore. lol wadever.

ok i guess i have nth else to say le =x lol sorry guys. most of you will read this after china anyway, lol. cya ppl! have fun in china! unless you're already back-.-

- if i looked on the dark side, she's gonna be happy while im far away thinking of her.
if i looked on the bright side, ill think of her while she's gonna be happy.
pls remember me?
take my heart with you when you leave.
but i wish you could give yours to me too.

2007-05-19T16:46:00.000+08:00

alright. here's the post for today ppl.

due to my recent tags and for the sake of everyone, and myself. today's post is gonna be happy :D yeah. but its gonna be the last one too, so im ending it with a good spirit. today's a new day, and though its part of a sucky life, doesn't mean it has to suck. im not thinking about any unhappy stuff anymore, because its what i should get used to. so i guess ill be only blogging gd stuff. and if there aren't, then i guess there wont be any posts at all :D cos there's no point in being emo any day and you never get what you wish for.
so i guess there'll be less posting from now onwards =x

i shall reply my tags?

9 may
[suwern] typo la.. sorry luh.
[alvina] oh.. lols thanks. yeah i think so (x
[jiahui] o.O maths paper?! lol i reply tags super lag-.- but thanks anyway(:
[anqi] hey(: haha ok.
[ada] ohh. alright then(:
[anne] haha. you should end by nw alr ba.. lol.
[debra] lol. freedom long time ago le..
[josephine] wl eh.. lols. damn sian luh you (x
[meryl] zzz bhb. lol. thanks anw.
[deborah] ohh.. haha too bad luh you MATURE alr wad xD yours is over too by now-.-

10 may
[anqi] haha its been like that for a very long time =x
[samuel] yo :D
[alvina] haha cya!(:
[rachel] lols yeah :D

11 may
[sheryl] lol. dont think so (x
[josephine] in library also laugh. lols bye :D
[chermaine] sorry senior. lol.
[anqi] YO! (:
[alvina] hey! lol OUCH:D
[chowy] oh.. lols yeah. paiseh luh..

12 may
[xk] 'boyboy.smile la.dun so sad man.we going to c some chio bu in swimming pool lei.go train up.u know wad i mean ;D --- lol horny guy(x ok thanks brudder :D
[BSE] YES IT WAS ME! how could you not know):
[anne] haha i almost failed!
[meryl] oh.. lols ok thanks(:

13 may
[anqi] haha lols but i blasting song wad =/ k wadever. heh
[xk] 'linkin park will b cool also.xD new album summore x)' --- haha yeah. i got it alr(x
[BSE] haha it means BESTDIEVER :D
[alvina] oh lols good for you lor my comp still so old-.- thanks anyway. you too(:
[shipei] oh.. heh ok thanks!((: lol do ours mums deserve it.

14 may
[alvina] ohh.. yep thanks(:
[BSE] haha ok.. sweet freedom :D lol.
[anqi] oh.. yeah thanks i guess. but no1 understands =/ thanks though(:
[alvina] lol hey(x
[isabel] yeah they rock. lol.

15 may
[chowy] ahah yeah they do. thanks(:
[anqi] haha ok sorry bout that. thanks though! ((:
[alvina] haha everytime you come ask me cheer up de.. lols im trying yeah. thanks!
[suwern] hmm, guess so ba..
[anqi] haha THANKS!! (:
[BSE] lol very big meh (x heh..
[debra] wadever lor. haha.

16 may
[meryl] lol. always have been.. oh haha cool. ty :D
[alvina] lol? suddenly haiz. wad happened.

17 may
[jianle] haha its ok. long time nvr come huh (x
[BJE] haha its ok! yay you're here (x hmm im leaving wed 2pm lor. so no sch on wed :D lol.
[anqi] haha hi (:
[ada] oh.. lols alright ill try. happy huh. hmm. thanks(:
[meryl] lol this kinda logic.. heh im trying that now (x
[alvina] oh ok you smile too(:
[xk] 'yoyo.MYE i sure lose le.fk!' --- lols relax dude. i was better all along xD

18 may
[shermaine] hey!! do i know you. lols think i've heard of you(x thanks anyway yeah.
[anqi] haha liddat also can. lol YOYOYO(: -.-
[alvina] lol? you wan me cheer up then tell me my life is fucked up and screwed? haha.
[BJE] hey! im alright! :D
[hi] haha ok relax man. yeah today is happy=) thanks dude.

19 may
[shipei] oh.. yeah this post is for you lor. and whoever tt ask me to be happy? lols. im trying to think of one.. if u tink of sth happy tell me? ((:
[chowy] haiz i hope so.. thanks for everything yeah :D
[anne] lol you also hardly see me why so excited for me to come back xD heh. im leaving on wed, coming back on friday i think. yeah. and its not hols, its school de.. lol.
[alvina] oh hi(:

wow that's a freaking load of tags.. and i spent so much time.. lol. ok wadever.
hmm lemme think of happy stuff in my life..
...
...
...
nope i got nth :D but im not blogging any emo stuff. so no happy stuff = no blogging at all :D lol. actually after exams are kinda sian =/ cos computer games are really fun, but there's no happiness in them. lol wadever.

am i still being very retarded. zzz.
dont know why im still posting actually, cos this post is super long.. but i guess im just glad im nt emo. or at least its somewhere else.. haiz =x

kaoz im talking to myself. wonder what the world would think of me when they're reading this.. lol ok wadever.

so i think i should really stop now. and blogsurf. since i havent been blogsurfing these few days. no mood =/ have a happy packing-for-china weekend ppl! zzz stupid china. sell fake goods big meh-.-

so i guess i wont be blogging much le. ill still try to think of happy stuff! lol. yeah but other than that, these are gonna be my last few words. zz sounds like im dying. lol bye ppl :D
and as i thought it over, i knew what i truly needed.
so no matter what you may think about me,
no matter how much you may hurt and disappoint me,
no matter how much you really need me,
no matter how long i will have to wait or do,

i will simply continue loving you.

2007-05-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. im feeling really tired and confused. like sth great has happened but like thr's nt gonna be any tmr. ok nvm maybe im just going crazy. haiz..

i dont really know what to post now, cos my mood has never been so retarded before-.- guess everyth's really piling up. yeah..

tmr im not gonna do much.. these few days ill just prepare for china, though i know i wont enjoy it =x i still feel this whole immersion thing is lame. its making me hate chinese more lor =/

hey ppl! for those who are seeing this today, promise you'll come back tmr! k wadever-.- cos today im posting crap. and hopefully tmr's it'll be better.. yeah.. i dont know if i should still continue blogging =/ ok wadever. come tmr! if you wanna know, or sth-.-

do you all understand what im talking.. haiz. or maybe your lives just dont suck as bad as mine..

2007-05-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

today nobody tagged-.- and ytd only 2 did-.-
yeah everything seems so fucking screwed up now.

this is all part of life. everyone goes through this, and they get out of it. they same will happen to me, and its just a matter of time. i will learn from this, and turn out better than before. i should stop whining and being so fucking emo.

i've decided not to post anyth bout anyth that makes me upset, from the next post onwards. and since my life is nth but shit, i may not be posting for a long time. unless something fucking happy happens. other than replying tags, if there are even any.

i've found my meaning in life. its to screw up so other ppl can learn from it.
smile ppl.

all this just for one reason.
-isn't it really coincidental. that you have nice days whenever im not there.

2007-05-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

i have nth to post about-.-
happy b'day mum!

i've spent the day thinking, slacking, wishing i could sleep and dling songs-.- in this sucky life, the only thing that cheered me up today was that i dled linkin parks new album. wadever. actually it didn't cheer me up-.- k wadever..

are you still there? to make me feel like the happiest guy in the world when my life sucks so much. are you still there..

what happened..
or do i just love you too much?
what do i have to do. to be like him.

2007-05-15T15:56:00.000+08:00

today was as bad as ytd, just not in the same ways.

we got back our exams papers. just 2 actually..
CHINESE : i failed paper 2. but who cares when paper 1 pulls me up :D 53% for that.
SCIENCE : kinda stupid. didn't study much. 65% lor =/
k wadever. im not planning to show my parents until june hols end, so wadever..

after that had china briefing.. haiz. i dun wanna go. but like i have a choice-.- i just know what's gonna happen. and what im gonna feel. my life's just become so predictable.. cos it just gets suckier everyday..

life's not about working hard for goals.
life's not about enjoying it.
life's not about trying to make it the best you can.
life's not about the next one.
life's about surviving it.
with you.

tmr's my mum's bday. yeah 3 days after mum's day-.-
damn i have hw today-.- but wadever. i have nth else to do anw..

maybe i've just been a failure.
i wish i was there for you.
like you needed me to be.
i still miss you more and more each day.
when you cry, my heart breaks more.

2007-05-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

kp kp kp. stfu la i come home because i have nowhr else to go, no because i love living here.

got headache-.-
anyway, life sucks. all the same. especially on mondays..
im leading the broken hearts parade, but im all that there is to the parade. im alone.

today i slept again. and you were there.
and though i knew it was just a dream.
i was so glad i could still see you.
do you really miss me like i do?

2007-05-13T14:22:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day.
today's mother's day. and i dun have anything to say bout it-.-
but wadever.

yeah, guess ill just sit here and hope my life gets better.
i hope tmr will be better than friday. or any other day.
why do i still hope everyday-.-

anyway, im sick of these short posts. im sick of all this emo shit. but what can i do when i have no meaning to live.. zzz. im gonna spend my sunday spoiling my ears blasting music. good charlotte rocks :D

im waiting for you to cheer me up. and make everything worth it.

2007-05-12T12:42:00.000+08:00

midyrs are over.

i havent been online for the past few days. had no mood. wont be online for the next few days too. no mood again.
life sucks.
but im so happy u're somehow thinking of me.
or maybe that's what im believing in.
wish you'd tell me that. im more than just some guy to you.

2007-05-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

MYE day 3.

o.O sorry i didn't post ytd ppl. then didn't get to reply tags too. ytd i slept from 3-7, then 10-6.. haiz. freaking tired. of life.

basically all my papers sucked and im gonna drop out of sch by sec3. tmr's the last paper, gd luck everyone. then everyone's gonna be celebrating and returning to their normal selves. will i?

now im sitting here, with no mood for maths. zzz im still tired. maybe i wanna sleep forever too. life's so much better when you're dreaming.. haiz why am i complaining when i know things'll never get better..

but im still so happy with every moment im with you.
do you really know how it feels when you're my everything?

2007-05-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

replying tags.

1 may
[bel] ohh.. zz. i need lor =/ haiz nvm.
[leongying] lols ok thanks:D heh magnums.. lol.
[jinni] haha thanks! i know luh, kaoz =/ xD

2 may
[meryl] wadever luh. you tag everyday wad. LOL. (x
[debra] haha yeah thx for tagging(:
[alvina] you too eh :D
[clement] lol yo dude.
[chowy] lol ya lor wadever (x
[suwern] wadever luh. dao me lor think ill be affected meh. lols.
[rachel] haha yeah(:
[junie] i also tag meryl ma. and meryl rocks that's why tag me (: lol.
[meryl] huh i dun understand.. lols =/
[junie] haha i also duno wad she saying.
[anne] haha you're the only person who laughs at my lamest things.. that's why you're my good friend(: lol wadever..

3 may
[hi] lol. hi dude(:
[xk] 'dots.speechless.' -- ??? lol.
[alvina] oh haha cya everyday :D lol.
[anqi] heh hello(:
[debra] hey.
[BSE] haha HELLO (x you too ! :D

4 may
[ada] thanks(: same here eh.
[sheryl] lol. still emo(x
[xk] 'nick! go LAN aft MYE? xD' --- haha. ok i try xD
[shipei] hey((: thanks. last day! you study hard too (x
[alvina] lol. force me to cheer up huh.. heh ok luh(:

5 may
[clement] lol thanks(:
[anqi] lol thanks you too ((:
[BSE] haha wadever lor (x we both know the truth :D
[isabel] thanks(:
[chermaine] ohh. lols i cant think of only studying when im studying de-.- but thanks(: heh. good luck to you too.

6 may
[xk] 'wah bull**** u la.sad sad sad..exam come btr concentrate la.argh! cheer up anw' --- lol? ok luh happy lor-.- you too. good luck!
[jinni] hey:D lol you too.
[yingjun] haha i know luh(x i tagged you too. lol.
[BSE] lol wadever lor.. heh(x yeah luh i do la. dont pretend you also right :D
[anne] haha halo. thanks.

7 may
[anqi] heh walkwalkwalk. gd luck fr ur last day(:
[meryl] lol liddat also can.. heh. wadever luh. thanks for tagging xD
[xk] 'yoyo.one on one outing wif duck will b kinda cool? xDD rofl.jiayou for ur MYE.dun let me win u againxD 0.01 % xDDD' --- haha duck chio wad (x eh kp that 1 you tyco only lor.. lol.
[josephine] haha thx. stop laughing at my blog. lol. (x
[BSE] haha noo!! you're BSEAlways(: lol. heh thx for tagging:D
[junie] tell you le she tags here cos she rocks :D you rock too(:
[ada] huh i got!! zzz. sorry luh. anyway, good luck to you too :D heh.

8 may
[xk] 'hey dude go watch bleach on youtube or veoh.com k.cool show.n learn dota n get a life ((: cheer up man.i know u wan to walk wif jinni today wan rite..xDlol' --- lol exams la watch wad watch.. ill learn by june hols (: no need walk with jinni luh.. i got zabor liao =D
[alvina] lol naughty arh. ok thx! cya arnd((:
[chowy] lol wadever luh.dont rush it(: but thanks anyway.. lol horny PROfessor-.-
[BSE] haha HEY!! ((:

xk's VIP treatmeant for tag replying is so sian. lol.

2007-05-07T14:23:00.000+08:00

MYE day 1.

wow. i have been so hardworking i havent came online in 3 days-.-
thanks for all the tags ppl! will reply tmr since wed's english..

yeah. today's paper sucked-.- but im not thinking bout it. shall study for science later!! now ill go slp =/ haiz.. duno why im freaking tired.

nth else to say ba. me and my meaningless life.. zz.

nobody understands.

2007-05-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

zzz. i just duno wads happening to this world. or my world-.-

if you were to ask me about my life, its sad.
if you were to ask me about my dreams, they're sad.
if you were to ask me about loneliness, that's sad.
if you were to ask about me, im sad.

im sad. no more complaints. cos that's the way things are.

bye ppl. study hard. for shit.

2007-05-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

-.- today was meant to be chinese day. but i cant study a shit.
maybe cos its chinese.
maybe cos i keep thinking of it..

ill just try to be happy with you.
im holding back all the pain, for you. i promised.

2007-05-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

fuck. i knew this would happen. the minute i came back to school-.-
school's like suicide man. im just going there to ruin my life.

wadever. im not caring bout anything now.. ill just go. study or sth.. bye ppl.

if only you know how it felt.

2007-05-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

OH YAY. this is my 300th! lala. heh(x and i think im in a good mood. lol.

LET'S CELEBRATE!!-.-

wow am i lame or what. i remember using a cake on my 200th-.-

lol whatever. heh..

today was full of studying, so i have nth much to talk about. but i think life's kinda ok now? :D thanks to whoever helped. but i get a feeling everyth will go back when i go to sch again tmr-.- oh well. ill just enjoy today :D studying. lol.

since its my 300th, i shall reply my tags! lol.

28april

[jinni] haha! thanks for tagging then! :D i wont de la. heh.

[josephine] haha hello(: lol everyone does. haha.

[alvina] yo((:

[debra] hey! (x

[BSE] haha isn't that gd. eh more tags btr ma (x last time really dead lor. heh :D

[xk] here you go : 'xD nick keep wan jinni to tag xD nick want jinni? xDDD jkjk.anw nex time u reply tag.to my tag u help me write down wad i wrote ar..hahas thx dude.n u love cheap things?(the song) rofl' -- lol. tag only right-.- huh wad song cheap? lol.

[meryl] lala wadever. yeah welcome back(: lols. yeah i know, i havent forgotten(:

[gordon] yo dude!! (: why hais. lols.

29 april

[meryl] ohh.. lols he's not la. everytime also liddat 1(x i got tag lor anw! lols.

[jiahui] haha hello(: thanks! heh.

[xk] here you go again : 'hey nex time we meet up then go jinni.want?xDDD' -- lol? go jinni?? haha wadever la. horny guy.. LOL.

[BSE] haha thanks!! (x

[meryl, junie, meryl, junie, meryl, junie X 30] lol wadever man. haha thanks.. i REMEMBER how primary sch felt like now. with the BOTH of you(:

[anne] lol? hmm yeah. i agree.. lols.

[xk] 'i saw two lamers spamming..aiyo! so childish' -- lol dun kp my prisch friends la.. haha rmb wad we did at library that time xDD

[jinni] oh you tagged again :D lols. thanks you too!(:

30 april

[isabel] lols? thanks for tagging. not honoured not my prob lor xD

[xk] 'hais hais.sad life ar brudder )): lols' -- troublesome leh.. lols. yeah.. damn sad):

[debra] lol? ok thanks((: yeah of course i get what you mean xDD

[meryl] lol?? dun argue wif my fren. u sure lose de xD its xk not xy! heh.

[junie] ohh. haha-.- lols you go organise lor.. (:

[alvina] hey!((:

[suwern] huh i where got dao you?? lols.

1 may

[sheryl] haha thanks duck(:

[xk] 'hey tts the 300th post?y nvr celebrate.tot it will be a grand wan?lols' -- noo!! you come too early. NOW IS 300th! lols.

[anqi] hey!! haha ((:

[BSE] yay! (x haha thanks. lol :DD

[hi] zzz. i got kp you meh.

[meryl] that one test only la!! LOL. :D

[rachel] ohh haha yeah i was the one xD

ok that's it! yeah. bye then ppl!! HAPPY 300th! :D

lala.

im gonna take you flying one day.

2007-04-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

wow. think im suddenly feeling much better o.O maybe cos ytd was weekend and tmr can wake up late again :D lols.
and maybe cos of you.
yeah, but i guess ill have to work harder.. haiz.

my day was quite ok too actually o.O but i doubt life's getting better =/
THOUGH. today we took back our eng and maths tests!! haha. so happy =D had highest in class for both, tied with jiayun and yongchen for each subject. eugene loh was supposed to pay me $2 cos we bet on maths, but he no balls =x lol wadever.

hmm. maybe ill get back to studying ltr, heh. but now ill just slack. love that word-.-
oh and my tags are growing!! yay. lol thanks ppl! will reply tmr! special thanks to meryl and junie-.- zzz. haha.

thanks(:

2007-04-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

o.O today i tried spending my day studying. but i ended up smsing and watching tv =x haiz.. one more week. guess ill try my best ba..

ytd the whole evening and night and part of the morning was used up cos of 2 of my cousins bday. happy bday mabel and nora! lol not like they got come-.- yeah. i didn't do much thr.. wasn't really that fun. but yeah. then i sat at the beach when everyone was cycling-.- cos i was hoping you'd appear somehow.

yeah. and now my relatives come to my house again-.- lols also duno why. but yeah im supposed to be a 'good host'. haiz.. so much for studying or playing today then..
oh. my blog's been spammed after such a long time ever since the chowyhosy era-.- thanks meryl and junie, for reliving the memories. but next time try a different way. lols.

will reply tags by tues!

tmr sch's starting again. hope it'll be ok.. but i dont think so huh.. yea.

if being in love will make me feel this way,
i wanna feel this way for you forever.

2007-04-28T13:01:00.000+08:00

alright.. i guess my life still sucks-.- though some stuff still cheered me up. like this..

i love PaSTAR, i love PaSTAR,
PaSTAR good, PaSTAR food.
it is cheap, i love it.
i love PaSTAR, i love PaSTAR.

o.O many ppl would think im retarded after they read this, but if you knew the whole story you'd be laughing like siao. like wad 2E was doing =x

wow. suddenly alot of tags huh. then meryl and junie come back le. zzz remind me of prisch life =/ lols. wadever.. though it was so much better.. haiz.

shall reply my tags!! in case they're too old and ppl lazy go back check. heh.

[chermaine] oh. sorry =/

[bestie] oh.. haha talked le ma(: thanks, and i know :D

[leon] lol ill link la. so scared me for wad. haha.

[BSE] haha TAG MORE luh :D yep you look cute too =x heh. fine lor ill be honoured(x

[anqi] oh.. yeah thanks. for tagging(: if it means you care. lols. jiayou too!

[chowy] :D

[ada] yo(:

[josephine] haha. why nvr laugh huh. haha. hahaha =.= yo(:

[shipei] oh.. yeah. hope i can. thanks!((((((: lols.

[clement] yo yo. lol.

[meryl] haha sorry la.. its ok. heh. i also havent tag yours =x heh. you also jiayou lor! dun get higher than me can le :D and i know what you mean man(:

[xk] haha paiseh la.. i reply earlier for you lor. and in case you still forget right, this is your tag. 'wtf! u reply wad i all dun understand.cos the tag i tag is v long ago wan..lol..lazy go check =.=' lol.

[junie] same old junie huh. why you still rmb HIPPY. lol(:

[chermaine] thanks xD

[alvina] haha! ill go see alright xD lols :D

yeah. i really miss the primary sch life =x but i guess since im in sec sch, ill just live with it?
no matter how hard it may be.
anyway. thanks ppl! heh. and you too.

you know that, i love you.
lets just simply continue loving each other.
until forever ends.

2007-04-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

replying tags.

[jinni] oh hey :D eh another million years come you nvr tag again-.-

[xk] lol? not you la. bhb. xD

[BSE] oh.. lol now still got come here meh ): yeah thanks..

[chris] lol ok fine. hey(:

[chermaine] no she's not luh.. yeah but thanks(:

[suwern] doubt so..

[BSE] lol yep. thanks.. you too! :D

[SH] np =p

[alvina] oh.. haiz thanks(:

[BSE] lol pass le.. we gt GWH! yep. lol =x

[hi] lol. fats.

[shawn] thanks! though its over =x

[anqi] haha thanks! :D

[chowy] HELLO :D

[SH] gwh!! lol you didn't know? lol.

[samuel] yo!! lols yep(:

[anne] ohh.. haha gwh. im like telling everyone-.- lol.

[anqi] oh.. thanks :DD you're still comin huh. lol

[suwern] ty(:

[alvina] haiz i cant. sry but thanks..

[gordon] lol gd enough luh. heh (:

[sheryl] nah.. thanks duck xD

[leongying] thanks :D

[chowy] haiz ok.. ((:

[shipei] hey!! lol ill try((:

[josephine] haha ok thanks(: STOP LAUGHING la.

[chermaine] haiz sorry. yea ty(:

[sq230] hey! lol thanks for tagging! (:

[BSE] LOL where got lor. haha xD am i supposed to say you too? lol =x

[bel] haha. THANKS for tagging :D

[meryl] zzz. reply all at once can. lol. just tag as much as you can :D yep that's all. heh. I KNOW YOU'RE TALL LUH.

[xk] haha thanks dude.

[meryl] lol THANKS lor meryl=.= heh :D

yeah that's all. sry if my tag replies are short, i just dont have the mood..
nobody cares..
so all i can do now is study, study, and study.
haiz. fuck my life.
still no1's here.

2007-04-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

zzz. sorry i cant reply my tags.. cbox has probs. yeah.

im not in the mood now anyway. yep. that's all i have to say.
i dont have anything else left to say..
i dont have anything else left to live for.
so who's here for me now?

fuck.

2007-04-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

fuck. im damn emo. and im sick of ppl asking me not to be.
so fine i wont post anything. until i get better ill just be replying my tags. which will never end.

blog what shit. fuck my life..
now i know why i didn't wanna go back to school.

2007-04-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday i made a decision..
so i guess ill be less emo from this moment on. much less emo..
let's see how long im gonna take. its already been a day, and nth has changed.

sian. dun feel like replying tags.. lol. so i guess ill reply tmr or tues..
and i dun feel like going to sch-.- so sian luh, my class just had any of those relay msges telling you bout all the hw, and i got a super long msg and realised all the hw i all also nvr do =/ and midyr's coming! sian..

yep. think i wanna sleep early today. hope next week's gonna be better.. haiz. =/

2007-04-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

i've decided.
and i know it'll hurt. but im doing it for you.

zzz. today i woke up at 12 and lied in bed and thought about life for 2hours o.O haiz. i dont wanna go back to sch.. its like hell there. and i just wanna stay at home. where i have all the coke, root beer, chips, cookies, ice cream and all the temporary happiness. guess what i did ytd when i was home alone =/

so today is all slacking, and lifeless activities that will be leading nowhere.. haiz im such a waste of life.

my life sucks.. and i seriously think sch sucks now.. i wanna run away with my house and my food-.- and you.

i know i wont be able to be there for you.
and i wouldn't be able to touch your heart.
guess you showed me not to believe in that anymore.
everyone knows you'll be happier this way.

i will learn to love you less and less,
because i love you too much.

2007-04-20T15:10:00.000+08:00

i've been really down these few days-.-
troubled =/
so everyone was lying all along..

i wanna run from all this.
but why go if you dont come with me.

2007-04-19T21:14:00.000+08:00

syf day.

today everything went wrong.
why do people hate me, when all i wanted today was to be with you.

2007-04-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

o.O i've spent the whole night chatting online with my mum nagging. zzz. and now i dont have any more time to do anything else-.- wadever.. will have to rush this post then.

hmm. today was a lil screwed up-.- and ALOT about tucking in shirts, and personal conflicts between me&dr boon and me&mrs koh. lala. lols wadever-.- i got a green form too. heh =/

NC koh : who is down for SYF tmr and cant take the test?
*raises hands
NC koh : nicholas?! what are you down for?
me : choir.
NC koh : YOU'RE IN CHOIR?!
*gives a wtf face.

man. wadever lor.. LOL. apparently choir guys cant wear their pants low and cant spike their hair-.- JASON AND CORNY'S HAIR ALSO GT STAND WAD =x

yeah and that's bout it. tmr's syf.. and every1's kinda freaking out. i dont really see what the big deal is, but whatever it is, good luck ppl(:

trust me. when i say it'll happen.
all you need to do, is promise ill be in your heart wherever you go.

2007-04-17T19:38:00.000+08:00

haiz. i dun wanna be emo.. but i cant help it-.-
everything went wrong today. and every single person that promised me, lied.
maybe someone's out there, but i dont even know if i can trust you.
fuck. it cant get any worse.. dont think your life sucks. try me.

are you really here for me.
because you haven't been for so long after everything i've went through.
maybe you're all i have.
but that's enough. as long as you can show me what you never did before.
though i guess you wont.

2007-04-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

today wasn't really good. haiz.
i kinda wonder when was my last good day?
oh yeah. thursday?

today my hair sucked. lol. sorry la ppl, my hair just cut is always liddat de ma =/ except this time the right side's longer than the left. kaoz super weird la.. and its the top-.-

yep nth much bout today. sch and choir was normal.. zzz. after choir they all pangseh-ed me.. lols. wadever luh.. i think tmr's gonna be the same again.. haiz.

everytime i look from far away.
you being so happy with everyone but me.
and though it hurts everyday,
i just hope that smile will stay.

maybe one day, my turn will come?

2007-04-15T18:23:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking about you, day and night.
and all i do is hope..

even if you care about them more than me.
even if i dont get the chance to make you smile but they do.
even if you dont talk to me cos of them.
im gonna show you that ill still be here.
even if they go.
or even if they dont.

i've been thinking about you, day and night.
do you think of me too?

2007-04-15T17:53:00.000+08:00

replying tags.

31march
[SH] relinked liao!(:
[BSE] lol? that would be like, many many nights ago-.- but anyway. HEY BSE ;D
[leongying] lol. i alr tagged 2 weeks ago =x heh.

1 april
[ada] oh.. lols. im ok thanks(:
[leongying] im efficient in replying tags too. lol.
[meryl] relinked ;D
[sheryl] relinked ;D
[gtgw] you too. lol ;D
[jianle] you pro luh, win me luh-.- lols. haha you too =))

2 april
[annabella] i noticed. lala (x
[BSE] LOL BHB ;DD
[alvina] haha same here bestie. lols ;D
[xk] lol k luh next week (x

3april
[gordon] oh.. heh this is gonna be a hell lot too..
[debra] did i relink you? =x heh. relax la
[SH] haha yea =/
[shipei] oh.. hey((: thanks!!
[jaycelyn] LINKED! ;D
[eugene] lol paiseh reply so late (x next week la. set..

4april
[BSE] YAY. lol =x thanks ;DD
[jianle] huh i only see one =x lol wadever. haha very gd meh =/

5april
[chowy] =D
[lynn] oh.. lols thought you knew wad. haha i dun mind! tell me if you have plans! lol.
[meryl] relinked liao! sry i took so long. lol.
[BSE] lol ;DD
[josephine] lol retarded you =x heh relink liao :D
[debra] very funny meh. lols =x
[leongying] i did?? lols no la i didn't xD

6 april
[jiahui] shuai ge?? lol. i didn't force you to say that o.O haha.
[mabel] lol? haha sorta.
[sq230] oh alright. heh.
[jolyn] oh.. its ok luh (:
[shipei] oh.. you should watch with me((: lols. thx!

7april
[chowy] oh!! haha thanks =D
[BSE] i love my senior! lols.
[chermaine] lol. sorry lor =/
[alvina] yeah i am ((: heh. you too!
[josephine] lol. everytime i see your tag i imagine you laughing-.- haha you too.

8 april
[elissa] lol why got 2 then one gt !!!! the other dun have o.O heh xD
[anqi] haha! halo :D lol wadever lor. heh xD

9april
[SH] its meant to be. lol(:
[BSE] of cos fun luh ;D
[hosy] haha o.O lol ok.

10april
[jianle] its true wad xD haha ok thanks then!=))

11april
[charisnjo] oh haha hey ;D
[chowy] hey (:
[chermaine] haha paiseh luh =x ill take note ;D
[ada] lol. i think that's lame. but wadever (:
[maxle] o.O you are? max? LOL sry. hi anyway ;D
[deborah] nvr put BSE liao =( lols you can do it all ;D

12 april
[chris] you're the choir one? LOL ok then. ahah my junior tagging-.-
[meryl] eh must make until font so big meh. lol ok you're welcome (:
[shipei] haha. but it was worth it? ((:

13 april
[chowy] haha thanks :D

14 april
[josephine] o.O lol. how you make it orange and moving? xD
[ada] ya lor my blog's getting dead. lol thanks anyway.. and nope im not gonna do anyth bout it luh.

wow. that's alot.. i spent 30min-.- lol wadever..

2007-04-14T18:43:00.000+08:00

urgh. i was replying my tags halfway when i became so sick and just cancelled everyth.
sorry ppl, for the 14 days of not replying..

wonder why this is happening.
why im letting you keep hurting me while you turn away.
why im feeling that my life sucks just cos you're nt here.
why im making you my everything, when you have so much more than me and my wasted heart.

now i finally know.
our perfect worlds, are 2 different things.
mine has just me and you.

2007-04-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to blog about. many many really happy things..
do you know how much it meant to me?
but sometimes something which really hurts can spoil it all.
or how much you've hurt me..
cya guys.
maybe you really dont. afterall i know they're still on your mind.
not me.

yesterday you gave me hope.
that i had sth to live for.
today you destroyed everyth.

but i promise. ill still be here. forever and ever.

2007-04-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

ok im trying to rush this post, so it'll be a short one.
have to study for maths (x haha. guess everyone's really scared? see alot of ppl passing notes and looking for remedials-.- i went for 2 remedials and 2 study sessions in 2 days-.- kiasu huh.. =/ but i still think ill fail. lol. i've been failing my last 2 maths tests.. haiz.

lol yeah that's bout it. tmr there's PE!! but im a lil sick =/ haiz sian la. and today eugene didn't come to school again.. maybe tmr he'll come. if not he cant play soccer): haha..

that's bout it. good luck for maths ppl!!

im so happy it's finally comin.
and hopefully i wont have any disappointment.

2007-04-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

im just fucking emo. dont talk to me. im not fucking interested in anything.
cos i have nothing. and that's really far from everything.

you were so happy tdy.
that explains it all.

2007-04-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

urgh. im left with so much freaking work and im still blogging-.- wont be using comp today, since i came back so late from sch too.. zzz. still got tuition hw sia =x yeah so maybe ill be staying up late. hmm. nobody to pei me huh ):

wadever. im rushing this post, so in short. today was ok. though it still feels really meaningless.. haiz.

damn i keep getting coffee stains on my pants-.- all 3 are stained now, so i think there'll be stains on my pants everyday. and of all places its there =x

wadever. bye then every1!

i duno what else to do, but hold on.
and hopefully day by day we'll be happier tgt.
i just need to know that things are going the right way..
and you can just confirm it by that smile.

2007-04-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

tmr's a new week. i've finished my work, but dont think im ready for it yet.

do you really see what im doing for you.
and how much you break my heart sometimes.
i just hope it'll pay off one day
cos the only person that can decide is you..

happy easter(: no eggs today.

2007-04-06T13:44:00.000+08:00

'today you will be with me, when i go into the kingdom of heaven' - Jesus.

lol. happy good friday ppl(:

i have nth to post about, so im just posting for e sake of posting. was i very emo ytd =x yeah. but i guess all i can do is hope.. and maybe pray. since Jesus is on my mind too. lol.

all i can hope for is for you to be happy.
even if there are many things more important than me,
even if you dont care about my life,
even if you dont see how hard im trying,
even if i cant help.
i just wanna be there for you.
and hopefully one day you'll understand that..

are you reading this?
cos i hope it means sth to you too.

2007-04-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

you have no idea how much that freaking hurt.

for so long, i've been trying to hold on.
everytime you needed me.
did i ever leave you?

guess there's no point crying over sth you cant change..
though i cant stop crying over what i wish was different.
i should have known all this while when i was trying to be your everything.
that it wasn't possible..

now i really have nth.

2007-04-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

zzz. ok my mood's going down and down cos of many stuff. and now i think im emo again =x argh. dammit.. why does sth else always go wrong when things are about to get perfect-.- haiz..

not gonna blog bout my day. yeah.

-wtf. why are you so dammit bitchy. you think you're really great just cos your badge over thr on your shirt is slightly different from ours? face it. its ugly.. just like your face. your attitude sucks, just like your face. why do you always have to get things your way when you're so obnoxious, selfish, bitchy and childish? you keep blaming people for the things you always do wrong, and all you think about is how you feel and how people can make you live a happier life. you wanna know sth? you dont even have a life-.- fine, insult and backstab me if you want.. i should have known better.

sometimes i think sitting with eugene loh has its benefits. lol. like when you're alr so used to ppl kp-ing you that you wont take everything seriously and then you'll just say 'sorry'. apparently some people dont-.-

fine then. hate me all you want.
so much for trying to do the right thing=.=

you dont know how much i need you now.
yet i have to wonder if u're ok.
cos i cant go on without you beside me, smiling.

2007-04-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

haiz. ytd i was suddenly feeling really happy o.O but today its back to normal. guess at least im not sad.. so i wont post any emo stuff tdy :D
some stuff ill just keep to myself =/

lol. im lazy to post bout my day, but i guess it was ok.. zzz.

wanna post bout ytd's TUITION. wth-.- after 13 years of my life i finally have tuition-.- just cos some damn teachers from AHS decided to give lame tests on books about monkeys and pigs during the first term, and i obviously failed-.-

it was quite ok i guess =x the ppl were quite frenly o.O but weird. lol. there was this guy who reminded me of some ppl, just much more spastic and disgusting-.- lol shall not state their names =/

overall i guess it was quite ok? i learnt some chinese words, but that's the least i care about. LOL. reached home at 7+ and slacked all the way..

tmr thr's gonna be maths test. though i revised finish le.. sch's gonna start early too. wonder if im gonna do anyth before that. heh..

ok looks like thrs nth else. i shall end here. bye every1! :D

2007-04-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

yeah. due to some reasons. i wont be emo anymore.
ill try not to. cos im happy..
im happy and totally not emo :D
maybe i should even change my skin.
im not.
im not.
im not.

haiz..

2007-04-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

i dont get it. why life has to be like that..
nothing's ok.
nothing's gonna help.
nothing is what i have.
nothing is what i am..
its just full of nothingness.

why did i have to make you my everything.
when you dont feel the same way.

wish you'd act like what you say.
like you really meant it.

im glad you're happy now.
though i know it doesn't mean anything to you.

2007-03-31T20:20:00.000+08:00

i stayed up late last night. for a special reason.. but i guess it was just useless. today had choir and cos i didn't manage to sleep i had red eyes, runny nose, sore throat and another headache. im fucking emo now, and im just blogging so i can reply my tags and go somewhere else.. ill try my best not to let anything affect my tag replies.

16 march
[jianle] lol? ok thanks =)) lol wadever.
[rachel] huh.. haha paiseh i never go =x

17 march
[er..] huh. whr got concerned. k thanks anyway o.O
[eugene] done.
[deborah] its true man! haha BSE :D
[leongying] lol you're welcome.
[lynn] lol still can use e colour which is the same as the backgrd. haha.
[chermaine] haha you know who luh (x
[rachel] lol you know le ma? sms me if you still need. lol.

18 march
[shipei] oh.. thanks(: haha. cya den :D im still an impure nerd.. lol
[soohan] haha really arh. thanks! i think.
[charis] lol also duno if got next time lor.. k thanks for that long list xD
[alvina] haha! linked le.. thanks (:
[ada] lol how i know him luh.. ok cya then(:
[xk] heh thanks..
[deborah] whr got lor.. u pro mah. lols.

19 march
[josephine] haha halo :D *laugh laugh laugh -.-
[annabella] you passed by twice? lol.
[rachel] huh you saw arh.. lols no luh just emo =x
[charis] haha ok. i already am XD
[debra] oops. lols ok soon ba =/

20 march
[alvina] haha yepyep!(:
[casper] haha of cos ok luh! mee pok forever dude.
[shawn] lol its ok. man that was damn long ago-.-
[er..] lols thanks. how you know o.O you're frm choir?
[chowy] LOL liddat also can.. i know luh =x
[leongying] haha! your test is over le.. lol.

21 march
[jianle] haha! you're always the first lor. lol.
[leongying] haha i know chill was only used when some1's pissed =/ lol.
[elissa] hey!! haha thanks for comin. lol im emo for half my life..

22 march
[chowy] huh ruin wad? lol yeah i know(:
[er..] lol ok thanks i guess. i still duno wth you are =/
[jiahui] hey!! haha thanks ((:
[chowy] lol i know. ehh im replying now.. and its not fun at all-.-

23 march
[jianle] hah! again. lols thanks alot((:
[leongying] lol yeah i do.. but i just cant help it luh =x sry.
[er..] o.O who are you? zzz you're tagging everyday lor.

24 march
[deborah] lols no luh. im not so bad liao! haha :D
[gordon] haha yeah. kinda lag huh-.-
[isabel] oh!! haha its ok luh. thanks to you too(:

25 march
[glen] oh.. lols k i will soon.
[jianle] haha yep=))
[shipei] oh.. err right. yeah i really cant help it.. sry. thanks anw(:
[xk] haha ok.
[charis] lol ok ill try. got lor.. a few days ago o.O lol.
[suwern] o.O go die luh. haha.
[leongying] haha! yep.. lols.
[deborah] haha must you say it so many times.. lol. ok luh ill tag soon =x
[ada] oh.. right ok. thx(:

26 march
[jianle] haha your tag was so lame. but tts gd =)) lol. cya! haha..
[jolyn] hey! lol yeah you were here.

27 march
[josephine] lol? liddat only then laugh until so much. haha nvm luh i alr change my url wad..
[deborah] yay BSE!! haha ;DD
[leongying] lol i dont mind!

28 march
[charis] haha. lols at least got happy part right..
[xk] lol true.. k luh. my CS improve le wor.. =x
[gordon] haha thanks! :D
[sheryl] LOL. emo cannot meh.. alright ok.

29 march
[er..] zzz i duno wad u're talking about. can u just tell me who you are. its freaky to have a loyal anonymous tagger?
[deborah] haha BJE is already replying BSE's tags and will go to BSE's blog VERY SOON (:
[chowy] cool? that im emo? zzz. kk.

30 march
[josephine] LOL liddat also laugh. halo :D
[xk] haha yeah. lovesick.. lol =x
[anne] haha why suddenly come? lol thanks for ur tag! (:
[annabella] oops! lol cos i only put my url on my msn pm-.- sry..
[alvina] haha i got go!! lols. cya soon (:
[debra] wl wan me cheer up still say i suck-.- lol.

31 march
[chowy] o.O right. lols thanks..
[annabella] thanks!(:
[leongying] huh what's it about? lol ok ill go try to find. wont kill you luh =/
[gordon] huh.. lol.
[hosy] eh! long time nvr come huh. lol like you rock liddat xD
[jingyi] hey!! haha =)

imagine 16 days without replying tags-.-

yeah, nth's wrong.

you dont know how much you're breaking my heart, dont you?
and yet all you can think about is them.

i know i've promised, and i know im not really living up to it.
but how can i when you never act like what you say.
how can its so obvious i can be so easily forgotten.

since you're not talking to me at all,
ill just keep quiet and let those people more important cheer you up.
while i wait until you need me.
sometimes i just wish you'd stop to think about how you make me feel for awhile.

do you still remember im here for you?
or all you can think about is still them.

it just had to change.

2007-03-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

SIAN LA. still dun feel like replying tags =x

tmr there's chinese common test. argh.. so im sorta revising now, but i keep getting distracted =x

there's nth much to talk bout sch today.. everything was normal. except during english period mrs koh brought me out the class for a talk o.O talked about many teachers complaining bout my mind being somewhr else in class, then ask if everyth's ok at home or sth =/ guess my studies are really deproving. haiz. wonder what im distracted to..

ok after sch. ncc guys had ncc, xk had some stuff i duno about, joneh wanted to go home super early as usual-.- so i was pangseh-ed, then just lingered at EN and watched ppl while studying a lil =x tmr got test wad.. dont get used to it(:

after that 3rd shift came, and i saw that hardly anyone was booking. so i decided to play xD heh. damn long nvr play liao. im made top fragger! :D lol. but wasn't v gd cos the other team kept winning-.- made some EN friends too =/ lol sounds kinda weird.

wow. think im actually posting a happy post.. yeah. guess there's only one reason for it.
and its the same reason why i keep getting distracted.
you.

2007-03-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

ok i think im feeling much better o.O yeah guess i've learn some things. i still dont feel like posting bout my day though-.- paiseh. have been quite busy these days..

today was show and tell. and i got laughed at =x its all i can say. lol.

yeah my tags accumulate until DAMN lot alr =/ kaoz. i still have no mood! lol. probably tmr or thursday? zzz.

sian. i miss CS.. lols. yeah that's bout it i guess. damn my comp's lagging like siao.. and i have 3 chinese tests in a week o.O lol that was random..

ill just try my best.
and hopefully one day u'd see the heart in me.

2007-03-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

i just changed my url-.- hope everyone knows. i know its not, a very good name =/ but apparently the url cant have hyphens liao.. yeah.

will reply my tags tmr!! today was a sunday so i have not much to blog about..

guess ill just have to trust you.
the way i want you to.

2007-03-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

yeah guess im feeling a lil better.
or at least im trying to.
but i still have no mood to post =/
or reply tags =x
soon yeah. continue tagging! thanks.

im gonna give you what you want.
and ill just accept the fact that you wont always give me what i want.
but i just dont wanna miss you anymore.

2007-03-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

today sucked even more.

its kinda stupid how im letting you affect my whole life, when you dont need me anyway.

2007-03-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

cant you see all im trying to do.
cant you see how hard im trying.
its so easy for you isn't it. to let go of everything we've been through.
when my heart shatters the moment i think of you.
though i know it wont come, im still waiting for the day you really need me.
cos i promised i'd never give up.

2007-03-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

i have no mood to post at all.
what for post bout this damn life.
just some worthless piece of shit that almost wasn't.
the day just sucked, and nth gd happened.
not much bad happened too, but sometimes one's enough.

you know i'd always be there for you.
but since you dont seem to need me, maybe ill just let you smile on your own, with all those other ppl.
afterall, im the one missing you.

2007-03-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

wednesday, march 21

i dont have the mood to do anything in this fucking life.
goddammit give me a break. to cry.

while i was wondering where you were.
i knew there was no difference as long as you weren't here.
smiling that beautiful smile that could wipe all these tears away.

2007-03-20T18:24:00.000+08:00

didn't post ytd cos i was sick-.- dont quite rmb anyth actually, cos i was having a damn hell of a kind of headache. i just rmb feeling the pain, going through the dance rehearsal and a lil bit of sectionals, then taking a cab home o.O

after that when i came home no1 else was at home so i just tried to rest. but my headache was so painful i couldn't slp, so i had to just lie there in agony. lol. so sry if i replied any msges late ytd.. and im really touched btw :D LOL. heh bhb=.=

ok wadever. im glad its much btr? =/ though its not totally gone yet. today i ponned the first 4 periods of sch cos i wasn't feeling gd in the morning, then after that went to sch.. was during recess. caught corny doing his duty and he was damn shocked to see me. lol. bought a kong rou and chionged up. heh.

lessons were ok luh. cos it was double science, single maths and double acc. heh. so i guess other than maths it was fun. mr ong's lessons are the best. though we hardly learn anyth =/

after everyth we had the show'n'tell dry run o.O they made us bring our clothes to change and asked us to change back right after we changed-.- but that wasn't the main thing. our dance sucked like hell =/ and we performed in front of 2 other classes. zzz screwed up.

wadever. the other 2 classes' ones were much better. for a start their songs were much nicer than ours =x but wadever. then during 2D's dance when the guys were supposed to lift the girls javier couldn't lift his partner up. ahah=.=

then went to EN for 2nd rehearsal since we sucked so much. lol. then got laughed at a few more times, and went home with corny. while everyone was having so much fun.. lol.

yeah. tmr there's ting xie, and i think that's bout it. but got 30 cheng yu to learn-.- will start later. guess today was ok.. but i know im nt happy inside.

is it worth it working so hard just for you.
is it worth it to spend every moment of my life on you.
is it worth it, every time you break my heart.
just to get that smile that any ordinary person can so easily get.
is it worth it?
if you asked me, if you could be happy. it definetly is.

2007-03-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

ok. i JUST FINISHED MY HW! :D after a long day of chionging-.- and now im only left with around and hour.. zzz.

dont wanna waste my time on posting =/ so ill just rush this post. nth much to talk about anyway.. since today was all about work-.-

yeah. tmr start sch liao-.- hate it. and all the periods tmr are freaking boring.. zzz.

today i needed you so much. but you had so many better things to do.
and all i needed was to know you needed me too.
but still no word from you.

2007-03-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

saturday, march 17

ahah! today was quite fun xD

started with choir. when i just came in i straightaway heard from casper that godwin tried for campus superstar o.O and that he was rejected =/ lols. didn't really believe it at first, but then i think its kinda possible now =x

then when godwin came into choir everyone was laughing. then jesse extra say 'nice singing godwin'. then randy replied 'you shut up, you wouldn't have got in either'. haha. lols k im just being random-.- but i think its funny o.O

ok anyway. mr toh split us into 4 groups. each group had all 4 sections, and were taught by either shawn, joel, wensiu or himself. guess which group i got into-.- lol. k la think im satisfied with it o.O at least its better than sectionals(x but that's all i like bout it..

today i was singing like shit lor-.- and mr toh said i was breaking my voice so my singing very throaty o.O lol wadever. limying was super loud xD oh and mr toh made us do this weird exercise whr we had to lie down and sing o.O wth luh. it was really stupid, but again. better than sectionals =x lol

then after splitting the 4 sections we came back to the music room, and each section had to perform to the whole choir. duno if any1 heard me. and if it sounded like shit =/ haha. but wadever. think corny so loud should have overpowered me lor.. lol.

yeah enough about choir. after choir casper wanted to eat mee pok at simpang, ever since tuesday he got super addicted-.- haha i also wanted to eat, so charis and alvina came along. guess what man. mr toh fetched us all the way down to simpang o.O damn cool right.. but his sports car now become mitsubishi lancer or wadever. not nice liao ): lols.

yeah so we ate lor.. charis couldn't tahan the chilli xD den alvina and casper didn't even ask for chilli lor ): lols. yeah after that we all took taxi to kembangan, cos charis and me had to go to grace's house. sian luh everytime we 4 take taxi they make me sit in front, cos GUYS ARE SUPPOSED TO DO THAT-.- wadever lor.. LOL.

when we reached grace's house i think all we did was play pool =/ lol. i finally won eugene loh. but i still think he's better than me luh. yeah grace's brother played with us too. he said sth really surprising o.O haha he said i looked older than eugene loh. o.O and that he looked like a p6 boy =x ahah. damn funny-.-

yep. after that i went home le lor.. now im left with loads of hw o.O think im gonna chiong as much as possible tmr.. though im still slacking tdy =/ yeah. thats bout it then.. havent posted so long in so long o.O lol. bye!

how could i ever say no to that smile.

2007-03-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

WOOTZ!! i just changed my skin xD

lol. thanks leongying for helping me find. i spent 3+ hrs and all she needed was 20sec-.- lol. whatever it is, i feel so damn happy :D now i can bug other ppl to change too!-.-

i hope this satisfies the majority of my blogreaders =/ lol. pls take note that the archives have nothing in it and my blog can only be highlighted downwards and not upwards. why in the world am i saying this-.- lol

since my blog is so 'refreshed', i shall reply my tags!! :D

9 march
[rachel] lol? ok thanks(:
[leongying] haha you damn random leh. cya anyway!

10march
[hi] lol kinda obvious. wadever luh-.-
[xk] lol? so ji jiao. haha k la honoured (x
[jianle] lol backstab gd ma (x haha jiayou ((:
[chowy] o.O you then lor. LOL.
[jianle] wow you tagged twice. lol thanks=))
[deborah] haha SORRY BEST SENIOR EVER =/ lol dun pointpoint-.-
[sumone] o.O k lor anything..
[ada] oh.. yeah that's what everyone says. but thanks anw(:
[bel] hey! ahah thx =D
[leongying] haha yep.. cya!
[samuel] o.O why cant believe. then still ask me get well soon.. lol

11march
[shipei] haha ya lor. tink its crappiest nt crappest. but i agree anw(x lol its ok. cya! :DD
[hi] lol? dun liddat say la. haha.
[leongying] haha! i've yet to relink you =x be patient!
[sumone] o.O right..
[charis] haha relax charis.. just ignore luh (:
[deborah] LOL. haha i nvr pose lor.

12march
[chermaine] lol? nah its not her.. haha.
[samuel] yo :D
[leongying] thanks :D

13 march
[rachel] lol thanks. why make my name so big.. lol
[shipei] yep everyth will be ok. lol thx and cya((:
[ada] oh.. right. thanks. cya! :D
[leongying] haha think you asked me cheer up the most. it worked luh. a lil (x
[hi] huh wad's tt supposed to mean?
[deborah] lol dun siao luh-.- bully junior.. lol.

14 march
[vanessa] ahah hi mum. (x
[er..] great another anon-.- lol ok thanks for that. but im not giving up (:
[charis] huh.. lols YEAH LUH im SURELY your GOOD FREN xD lol.
[jiahui] o.O dao lor.. i used to it alr=( lol. k luh wadever. cya :D
[xk] lol go hell luh. haha
[leongying] lol? thought last time you told me it was ok to be emo.. k la ill TRY LOR (:
[anne] whr got suddenly.. you also nvr come my blog 1.. lol kidding. haha thx! (: always the same phrase.. lol.

15march
[hi] man.. the only tag of the day and its about balls-.- dun dirty my tagboard leh.. lol.

yeah thats all :D i've spent so much time on blogging o.O from 11-5. wow.. zzz i really need a break. OH there's drums later! ahah.
**think my tagboard's having a lil prob. many ppl cant tag at it huh o.O ill try to go get it fixed..

i hope u'll nvr change.
cos i am, and will be. devoted to you.

2007-03-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

dreams are wishes you make deep down in your heart.
they remind you of your desires.
and let you experience how it'll feel if it came true.
dreams never come true.
guess you're not how i dreamt you were.

2007-03-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

hey ppl! zzz. posting so late cos i was busy earlier in the day.. this morning and afternoon was a total waste of time-.-

went to kembangan mrt at 10.15 to meet those ppl in the dance thing to go buy shirt for our class show and tell performance. also duno why they wanted it at kembangan, but after we tapped out then they went to tap in-.- wth for luh..

we went all the way to orchard and walked 20min to find a stupid mall, and then walked back all the way to the mrt empty handed. well the girls got some HAIRBANDS-.-

then they went all the way to bugis. so much money huh-.- i had to get a pink shirt, and bought one for $8, then we followed the girls for their shopping spree for a few hours, then went home.

think the buying shirt thing was just an excuse to make us go shopping with them-.-

whatever luh. came home did some studying, and then i finally played CS :D lol. yeah.. haiz im still gonna be so busy the next few days.. =/

my tags are accumulating like siao! how come so fast so much huh =/ lols. ok wadever.. will reply soon! and ill change my skin either tmr or on friday! (x

yeah that's about it.. cya!

im missing you so much..
but maybe to you. its just 3 days..

2007-03-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

you know im missing you. would you know the difference if i was gone.
you know i cant stop thinking about you. though you have never shown me.
you know i just wanna spend time with you. too bad i only get to see you leave.
you know i wanna be there for you. maybe im just not gd enough. cos you never seem to smile.
you know my whole life is about you. do you really mean it?
do you? i just know i cant forget you.

i guess all this hurt is nth compared to it if you left me.
i wont give up. not now.

2007-03-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. did i update ytd? i forgot-.- lols. but if i didn't, i didn't update cos i was really busy. yeah. heh =/

today had choir from 10.15am - 5pm o.O damn tired sia.. lol. started off with combined warmups, then 1.5hrs sectionals-.-
tenors were split into 2 halves, the supposedly better ones and the ones that needed some singing training o.O or wadever.. i was in the first one :D lol. but i hate it.. cos our subsection was taught by joel-.- casper got into the other class lor. then ended up playing dragon ball instead of singing. so gd right o.O lol.

then jesse gave attitude and pointed middle finger at joel o.O lol.. after sectionals combined awhile and went for lunch break at simpang.. dont wanna elaborate much bout wad happened on the way, but ate prata then flew back. lol. my slurpee burst-.-

then after that casper told me bout this junior in choir called eugenia or sth that had 100+ themes in her phone =/ lol. so i couped her phone then tried to send all the themes over. but her bluetooth had prob-.- so i only had 1 samurai boy theme from jonchia o.O ahah.. better than nth? -.-

after choir i went up to take my art folio. which i should really be doing now cos i nidda hand it up tmr o.O then went home.. yeah.

i realised i've yet to change my blogskin? lols. haiz my holiday is so damn busy..
yeah that's bout it. tmr there's choir again! =x but then will need to go for chinese supp class before that. such a waste of time-.- lol. bye guys!

when i looked into your eyes
i knew everything was worth it.

2007-03-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

argh.. didn't sleep well last night. due to certain stuff that happened.. now im starting to have a headache, sore throat, fever and runny nose. haiz just when hols started.. im feeling like shit-.-

today choir was nth much.. after choir went to grace's house for the show and tell rehearsal, but ended up playing pool. her house got pool table sia, some more its bigger than the EN one.. never thought i would be addicted to pool. lol.. played for 5 hours with the guys, cos the girls were easily bored-.-
come to think of it now, it was kinda meaningless =/ especially when i was missing you.

argh. maybe ill sleep early today. this week no soccer-.- sian..

i really dont know if life's getting better. but ill just live life as it is.
and hope you wont leave me like this.
cos all im living for is that promise..

why dont you say it. when i need to hear it the most.

2007-03-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

lol. just finished playing CS. aha so fun sia today.. knifed 3 ppl in the head-.- yay today im on form. lol. and guess what.. i only stopped cos i was added to the ban list o.O and right after i got 6 kills in the previous match lor.. =( lol. petty admins-.-

shall just reply my tags. then ill watch tv and then slp liao :D

[sumone] o.O who are you luh.. i wont ans that qn.
[xk] LOL tyco shit..
[deborah] lol got full of myself meh.. ahah. just happy tts all (x nvr saboh lor. just remind you of your beloved.. heh xD

ZzzZ.

2007-03-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

today's better. some things got better, some things were still the same. though im not gonna care bout those(:

its the march hols! im supposed to be happy. its the time to slack, have fun, slack, laugh, slack, eat, slack, and do wadever teachers dont want you to do. cos who gives a damn about them now :D

yeah. march hols are kinda busy, with lots of hw, choir practices and show and tell rehearsals-.- wadever lor. not gonna bother much bout those anyway. hmm in the mood for CS.. lol.

ok. for the gd news. I GOT INTO SYF!! wootz :D lol. all the sec1s in our section went in man.. see we're such gd seniors. lol-.-

tmr have to go siglap south CC again =/ and then after that have to go to grace's house for show and tell o.O wanna go home sia.. but no choice. haiz. that charis lor.. lol =x

ok luh im off now. but before that. i havent replied a tag!
5 march
[shipei] lol thx. im much better nw((: kaoz this feels weird. lol cya =/ :D

blogskin to be changed by 18 march! 2008. (x ahah lame..
happy hols!:D

see how happy you can make me. with just every lil thing you do.

2007-03-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

im home early today. cos thr was nth to do at sch-.- walked back all the way alone. zzz.

everything's screwed again. and you weren't here.
everyone that used to have the same probs, everyone that felt things like me, dont feel them anymore. guess im alone now.
whatever yeah. im used to this. so why should i care. nobody does anyway..

When everything is going wrong,
And things are just a little strange
Cos for so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have better things to do.

-.- wadever.

didn't update yesterday cos after dinner i came home and slept straightaway until 10 o.O then was lazy to use the comp-.- yeah, yesterday wasn't bad, but i suddenly have no mood to blog bout that.

science test was ok. heh. guess the science notes paid off. not just for me i hope?
maths. zzz dun like the new teacher.. eugene loh and me got scolded like siao just for talking a lil, then after the whole lesson he told the class 'you may have been sleeping, daydreaming or talking, its ok as long as you remember what i taught you.' wth luh. then scold us for wad-.- then when everyone left he asked us to stay back.. and we had to do punishment-.- guess what it was. we're now the class enforcers o.O it means when any1 in class talks, we'll be responsible for it. dammit la what kinda punishment is that-.- lame teacher..

yeah nth else to blog about i guess. will reply my tags before i go.. realised less ppl tag when i dont reply =/

26 feb
[deborah] oops. haha. think i alr apologised rite =/ heh.
[gordon] eh i also duno when you free sia. you free call me luh (:
[ada] lol ok ma. yours doesn't look that bad wad (x mine colour nt nice..
[leongying] lol ok then.. hope you've gotten it by now! lol-.-
[shipei] huh.. only tag cos of wuzun. lol. ok thx anyway((: my geog tyco 1 lor..

27 feb
[anne] oh haha ok yeah i know(: suay la you. heh..
[timo] lol. you type counterstrike source still got type CSS for wad-.- dun have sorry =/
[leongying] lol yeah. im tired of wuzun-.- soon you'll be too. heh.
[charis] haha YEAH im SO GLAD :D err its ok la. know you hardly tag at ppl's blog. lols
[ada] oh.. yeah thanks(:

28 feb
[annabella] you jiayou too! lol. havent tagged you too =/
[debra] o.O
[jinni] haha. ok i did put the other time :D my maths sucks lor.. =x

1 march
[hi] haha. dont wear any shirt lor. EEW dont show me. jk :D
[josephine] lol it does=.= k thx for tagging (x
[ada] oh.. alright. will try.

2 march
[xk] haha i dont mind.. lol. my class tee really so nice meh-.-
[anne] haha i know you alr said. hmm its ok la.. im also the youngest. haha.
[elissa] lol hey! (: hmm. same thing huh. haha.
[chowy] huh?? LOL. whr got cool..
[sheryl] haha i SIAN wad. may change during march hols (x

3 march
[rachel] huh wad thing??
[deborah] haha dun angry la (:
[jianle] lol updating =))
[deborah] LOL. shh (x

4 march
[jianle] lol i care lor! heh =)) cya!
[ada] haha ok cya(:
[alvina] hey! ahah cya :D
[rachel] lol think ill fail it.. but thanks (x
[jiahui] LOL. i dont like you luh-.- see your face make it worse. LOL.

5 march
[charis] haha yay you came again XD yeah we're ok :D
[chermaine] mister o.O lol hey.
[someone] huh. lol long time since i had an anon.. but hi anyway o.O no luh not rejected..
[jianle] haha. very slow le lor.. heh. cya! ((:
[bel] haha i nvr say ma (x
[ada] its a nice song. oh right. yeah take care(:

6 march
[anne] haha halo(: haha ya lor. i cant luh ): heh cya!
[chowy] lol. you're so lame (X
[annabella] eh i realised you tagged the exact thing at ada's blog too lor.. LOL.

7 march
[josephine] lol think i can trust you to tag at my blog everytime we go comp lab-.- haha (x
[ada] hey. oh.. err thanks then.
[yo] yo who are you. lols. science done liao :D
[jayce] ohh you tagged XD
[samuel] lol hey. long time nvr talk. im changing soon luh..

wow. even had to reuse colours-.- k as you can see my tags really reduce by alot. lol.

guess everyone has their own reasons. whether selfish or not. i couldn't care anymore..
what a long post o.O

let me take you there. so we can stay there.
together and forever.